7.10.2012

Why I refuse to be careful what I ask for

Is there such thing as a godly attitude? I don't mean having the attitude of Christ. I mean having an attitude toward someone that's not very kind but filled with the truth.

Well, if there is such a thing, I had a godly attitude today.

Someone REALLY irritated me.

A co-worker (I guess a former co-worker now) overheard a conversation I had about it being my last day.

"Is today your last day?" he asked.

"Yes."

"What will you be doing?"

"Nothing until August. I'll be working part time at an MDO program so that I can be at home with Lily more during the week."

To which he laughs and gives a snide remark, "Be careful what you ask for. That's all I'm saying."

I wanted to reply, "Do you really think after staying at home/working part time I'm going to wish I never left this place? You've lost your mind!"

What I actually said was (and this is where the attitude filled with truth kicked in), "As a matter of fact, I intentionally asked for this. I've been asking God for a better opportunity for six months. And He is good to me and He has granted me what I asked of Him. I want to be at home with my daughter. I want to spend more time with her. That's all I've ever wanted."

And that did it. No more words and no more eye contact. I didn't really choose to say that, it's just what came out of my mouth. When he warned me to be careful what I'm asking for, I wanted it to be clear WHO I was asking to change things. And WHO was giving me what I asked for. Because it is HE alone that deserves the praise. And HE alone that knows what is best for me. And if I asked for something, and HE is granting it to me...well, then, it must be what I need.

And I can GUARANTEE there will not be a day that I look back and wish I had asked differently!

This caused me to reflect on past prayers that God has answered. Things that I have asked for in my life that He has said yes to.

Let's start with my very first remembrance of an answered prayer. I prayed for a "blue baby" and 3 days before my 6th birthday, my brother Ben was born.

I prayed to survive a week in Mexico sleeping in a tent on the sand with my brother, 120+ degree weather, no running water/electricity, bucket baths, and holes in the ground for going potty. Not only did I survive, I was changed forever and I had the biggest laugh of my entire life the last night we were there. 

I prayed to survive my education courses at Auburn, more specifically Chi Chi's art class. I did, with some of the greatest friends, despite my inability to create a paper mache lady bug according to Chi Chi's absurd standards. Then I prayed for a job in Fort Myers and God provided me with one before I graduated. 

What began as a hope on a piece of paper while playing the game of "Mash" in 5th grade and developed into a daily prayer in 10th grade through my senior year of college, I married Brent. 

I prayed for two things in 2009: to become a mother and to teach at the best school on planet Earth. God said yes to both. 

I pray(ed) for Brent to have the wisdom to lead our family closer to Christ.  God is answering this prayer daily. 

Newly married and residents in a new city, I prayed for a godly friend. He gave me Katie. 

We spent all of 2011 constantly on our knees seeking the Lord's direction and asking for His provisions. He took care of every single detail and moved us to Bham. He's still taking care of every single detail. 

We prayed that Jesus would carry us through the news and pain of our miscarriage and lead us in regard to adoption/caring for orphans. He is. 

As a child of God, I can rest assured that I never have to "be careful what I ask for". Because I know that if I am given what I ask for, it is because it was already God's plan and it is what He sees best for my life. And all the other prayers that were declined...I can look back and see exactly why He told me no or wait.

See all the blessings I would have missed out on due to being careful of what I ask?

Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen
Ephesians 3:20-21

CAN I GET AN AMEN?!



3 comments:

Elyse16 said...

Amen!

Ericka B. Jackson said...

Great blog!!! It reminds me of this scripture -

Deuteronomy 4:9
Don't be careless. Instead, be very careful. Don't forget the things your eyes have seen. As long as you live, don't let them slip from your mind. Teach them to your children and their children after them.

Rusty and I try to keep a list of all the ways we see God show up and answer prayers, so we don't forget His provision and miracles in the years to come! We call it our "God Did" book (and this reminds me that I really need to update it!)

Mom to 2 said...

Amen x's 10! LOVE it, Brittany, and appreciate you putting words that were in my heart out there on the internet:) God does as He knows will best bless and grow His children. As His children, we need never be afraid to ask Him for what He has for us.

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